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{March 3, 2016}   Some Times

gossamer4

sometimes
i find myself going through the motions of the everyday,
my body moves blindly,
chaos into order by rote,
kaleidoscope tunnel vision thoughts,
backwards slide into ecstacy everlasting and all i want is you,
i’m set on replay,
burned into my brain
soft landing seclusion safely centered in a bed of thorns,
momentary release echoes infinite,
comfort in an endless series of storms,
shelter from arrows dipped in poison,
invisible protection,
a gift from ancient times, when warriors were worshipped
and supple sacrifices lay willingly,
prone at worthy feet,
it’s all here,
flying through empty rooms,
dust particles in the warm afternoon sun,
blanket of invisible draped,
molded together tangled, tethered,
it stays there,
carved in flesh and bone,
a constant reminder to breathe
and sometimes I do,
translucent gossamer ties us together,
now it’s here,
now it’s there,
but the constant of this devotion remains just that,
constant,
and steady as she goes,
no hesitation,
only the wanting,
wanting you, with no expiration date
for there is no time limit for perfection,
and sometimes,
some things just are
gossamer3

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{September 4, 2015}   Kitty Crawl

catstalk

kitty vision,
eyes open wide,
glow and reflect,
i take You all in by the light of dusk or
not-yet-morning light,
slouched back, supine, alert in reverie,
silent sizzle
it’s not a stalk but a draw, a pull,
insistent and incapable of taking no for an answer
so I slink,
low and slow i take it all in
no words, just purrs and hisses,
instinctual,
ingrained from the ancient tribes,
when primal ruled the lands
and winners took all
to live another day
it’s in our dna,
impossible to resist, this pre-ordained,
You dangle treats and i pounce,
positive reinforcement or force of habit,
maybe,
but that certain growl tells me
You control the outcome

kittycrawl



{September 2, 2015}   Who Owns Who

catman
like a kitty needing to curl up near You
i purr at Your touch
scenting You, much like
the way You left Your mark on me,
waiting patient and still
i crawl in Your direction at the sound of Your voice,
as i feel the pull of Your invisible leash
attached to my invisible collar,
alert and ready to leap across the room
or strut slow and low, tail in the air
searching for the slightest bit of Your attention
a gentle nip leads to a salty lick,
cat-like signs of devotion
yet it never crosses my mind
who owns who
catwoman



{August 29, 2015}   Super Moon

moonsuper2
we see the same moon
from different points of view
literally and figuratively,
unintentional entanglement,
twisted links in an invisible chain
and chinks in our armor,
leftover from a thousand year war

walls built then broken
crumble slowly, pebbles not stones,
just little bits and pieces
raining down from all directions,
cool, soothing away the scars from the torturous licks of flame,
a side-effect from being human,
no longer noticed from the familiarity

we can be superheroes though,
under cover of the night
if we follow the pull of the super-moon,
just check our fears at the door and don our capes,
invisibility a shared superpower
we break on through the barriers
and save our worlds once again
moonsuper1



{April 10, 2015}   Breathe Again

breathe1

a little nudge
in any direction
something to push her,
over
under
any where
any time,
he runs the treadmill steady and sure
alone
unrelenting
he carries on,
the finish line worlds away,
once in awhile,
less and less often but
once in awhile,
he idles,
she revs,
recharged
revived
responsive
reminded

and they breathe again

breathe



{March 25, 2015}   Lost At Sea

aliceapplee

if i fall
would you catch me now
or take a step back
and watch me crash
splatter in bits,
bloody and worn
just the way you found me

if i stumble,
heart in my hand and
a little worse for wear
would you reach out
or pass me by,
a distorted reflection
in your rearview mirror

if I keep it all inside
messy emotions
twisted and tangled
would you pull me apart and unravel me
or would your fingers fumble
leaving me without a lifeline
as i float aimlessly
lost at sea
with no land in sight

lost-at-sea1



{January 16, 2015}   Imaginings

genielamp1

i imagine i imagined everything
dreamed it all up
just to keep me sane,
i was a genie and granted all your wishes
little bubbles of time and space floating
and i’d slither from one to another,
keeping the balance balanced
sprinkling glittery hope like snowflakes
to cover the ugly,
make it twinkle like my eyes,
i tried to keep the stars in place
but they pushed back too hard and i tumbled,
you caught me anyway,
but my thoughts became scrambled,
foggy and fearful and full of wonder,
not the wonder of it all,
but the wonder of the why,
because it looked unattainable on paper,
perhaps i scattered my mind as i left what should have been crumbs
to lead me back,
i got lost
unsure of what was sure,
forgetting i shouldn’t forget
and tumbling to the bottom,
it’s dark down here
but i imagine i see your eyes glow far above
at the top of the bottle,
you peer down,
i can almost reach you

genielamp



{January 11, 2015}   That Same Night Sky

sky4

you stand by your window alone

staring into that same night sky in front of my eyes

does it look identical from your perspective,

does the location make up for the lack of warmth

between each frozen word

or do you make a wish,

hope for the best you can handle

and say your prayers as you sink into sleep,

does it change anything when you mouth the words

like memorized bible verse

or does a silent scream do the trick

head down shoulders back soldier,

carry on the mission you signed up for

until you drop,

from here

i can see the stars clearer when the moon goes away

sometimes i count them but usually,

just stare

at the wonder,

and it’s in the middle of the night

when i stand near my own window looking up,

i hover between believing the impossible possible,

or the other way around, doesn’t matter which,

the moon will always make it’s rounds and try to fuck me up

i shrug it off each time after awhile,

that cliché pull of the moon yanks me tight against my will

yet i always manage to hang on long enough for an angel to swing by

always at the most opportune moment when i need it most, (mostly)

and somehow makes me save myself

just watch out for those angel-faced beauties with a snake of the charmer in their eyes,

they can perform miracles, just don’t let on you know

sky5



{January 9, 2015}   500

snowangel1

i could sit here forever

as it nags at me, just a whisper really but

an unrelenting nag,

‘it’s all here’,

that siren’s call (it’s so beautiful)

‘come and get it’

and oh, do i want to,

dig deep and hold on tight then,

release,

explode in a burst of genius or

a smooth float down a lazy river,

one just as satisfying as the last

and the next,

it’s just this one, this particular now,

a sky high mountain i built with my own little hands

but i can climb,

my fingers flew before and they will fly again,

for now they slide along,

landing wherever and whenever they will,

not quite thought-less,

more thought-light,

a pressure-less kind of pressure,

it’s funny how you can see so clearly

through the early morning snowflakes

when you can hear again

snowangel



{January 5, 2015}   The Actual

angelfeathers6

i heard your voice this morning

my heart raced and my mind felt warm,

as if a blanket made of angel feathers engulfed me

and once again i felt safe, secure,

it didn’t last long though,

reality smacked me awake, hard and firm

stinging

reminding me my dreams are just that,

imaginary,

there is no pot of gold at the end of my rainbow

for i am nothing more than an observer,

watching the rest of the world go by

my brain puts pieces together in the wrong order

making the sensible senseless

and the senseless tolerable,

i’m disconnected once again

control ripped away

while the evidence piles up,

castles being built high in the sky for a worthier princess than i

as the actual tumbles over me brick by brick

holding me down, unable to save myself

from my uncontrollable self-inflicted mind-fuck

angelfeathers7



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