{July 14, 2013}   You Know The Time

it happens in those early morning hours
as the sun begins to crawl
when everything is nearly still
but for the mourning dove outside my window
kitty-cat snores softer than my beating heart
lingering thoughts from the land of nod cling stubborn
you know the time,
when what-is crashes into what-isn’t
that cold sweat slides around your body like a lover
finding the vulnerable
aware of every trigger point
fear slams violent and cruel
to remind you you aren’t in charge
it all pushes down on you terrifying
unheard screams swallowed for fuel
to get you through the endless
because an unquiet mind will not stop
and you can never let them see you sweat

{June 23, 2013}   Face Time

when the duality staggers me
it’s hard to catch my breath
coincidental overload stretches out for miles
and i swallow it,
choking on the bitter, savoring the sweet
push it down and push on through ’cause the other side’s just around the bend
though to the untrained eye it may appear
we are always on the verge of almost
there’s that little bit of face time to fall back on
in case of emergency

{June 21, 2013}   Separation Anxiety

separation anxiety
hovers on my horizon
earlier than usual this year
it comes around like clockwork
ever-presently dependable
ensuring my inevitable protective chill
a pre-emptive strike
to get me through the summer
the cloak and dagger part of this yearly performance
hides behind the shrubbery
waiting in silence for the sign
watching the sky like a hawk
eyes on the prize
simmering underneath it all i am willingly back-burnered
too understanding to let it go
my overflowing heart beats slow and steady
in it for the long haul
or, as long as you keep me breathing
they are, after all, one and the same

et cetera